clockwork

its amazing how things you never expect always seem to come at the least favorable time. but it's also an opportunity to gain the Lord when you least expect it.

im so natural, so...

im going to write this down so that i can come back to it and see that it was acutally real.

i was in my spirit tonight, and i guess i know that because i see things in a totally different light when im in spirit.

the testimonies were really encouraging. it was just so genuine tonight.

and for some reason, when im in my spirit, the Lord suddenly becomes the most precious thing in this universe to me, and nothing else seems to matter.

unforunately, im just not in my spirit most of the time, and i care about everything else in my life more than the Lord, but take my spirit's word for it.

i guess i just need to keep loving the Lord more:

"We must continually tell the Lord, 'Lord, keep me in Your love! Attract me with Yourself! Keep me all the time in Your loving presence!' If we will pray in this way, we will see what love we will have toward the Lord and what kind of life we will live. We will simply live by the Lord Himself. As long as we love Him from the deepest part of our being, everything will be all right. Whatever we need, He is. Do not try to get anything else; just look to Him that He would reveal His love to you. Song of Songs 1:4 says, 'Draw me, we will run after thee.' We must ask the Lord to draw us, and then others will run after Him with us. To take Him as our life, we must love Him in such a way."
-Life and Building as Portrayed in the Song of Songs (Ch. 2, pg. 24)