may all my days be yours lord

Recently, I've been enjoying how the grace of God is simply the Lord Jesus living in and through us.

And then I stumbled upon another wonderful verse this morning:
1 Cor 15:10 But by the grace of God I am what I am; and His grace unto me did not turn out to be in vain, but, on the contrary, I labored more abundantly than all of them, yet not I but the grace of God which is with me.

To me, that was somehow so encouraging. By the grace of God I am what I am. By the grace of God. That phrase stuck with me. I feel like so many times, I'm just so short. So incapable of fulfilling God's requirement, and just so short in so many aspects of my Christian life. But I was touched that even the apostle Paul said that it was by the grace of God that He could do what He could do.

In fact, it's even more than that. This grace is simply the Lord dwelling in us. It's more than a matter of doing. It's more than a thing. It's more than a matter or an objective fact. We're talking about a person here. It is altogether a state of being. And so I just uttered a simple phrase, "Lord, today, by the grace of God I am what I am." To be honest, I don't even know what that really means. But I do feel like I need to enjoy the Lord more. And I felt there was a genuine sense of desperation when I said that.

And then something else struck me. How much do I love the Lord? I just stopped for a moment and leaned my head back against the wall that I was sitting against, only to let a despairing "O Lord" leave the tip of my tongue. For a moment, I just sat there and thought. We know all the healthy practices of a Christian living, and I feel like it is so easy for me to go through the checklist in order to ascertain how I'm doing. But in how much of that is the Lord really real to me? I feel like I've been seeking to find the person of the Lord in everything I do this year, but it's still easy for me to lose sight of the Person in all these things. I was just so convicted. I don't want to remain "passive" in seeking after the Lord.

I just prayed to the Lord that I would seek first His kingdom. I want to seek first His kingdom. And I really meant it when I said that. I can only hope that this prayer remains in me over the next few days. I know I can't do it on my own, but I hope I can experience the grace of God in this.

A song soon popped into my head...and I knew I had to make my way to the closest piano.

I played the song in a simple but endearing way.

No syncopation.
No arpeggios.

I overlaid the melody over the standard chord progression, with the last four lines of the song resonating in my head as I played the second to last chord in the piece as a suspended2 chord.

May all my days be Yours, Lord
My heart be given to love You,
To treasure and to serve You,
By Your sufficient grace.