to Him I will give to eat of the hidden manna

The Lord has come a long way in me the last three years. And looking back, I realize His timing is so perfect and His intentions are so good. A few nights ago, I told my dad that I was in awe and thanksgiving with where the Lord has taken me.

Coming to college, I thought I knew the Lord, but the Lord has since showed me that it will take my entire lifetime to experience just a small portion of what He is. Praise the Lord that much of the land remains to be possessed. I was a good church kid all throughout high school, and while I did enjoy the Lord in a genuine way, it stopped there. There were highs and lows but it was always just superficial enjoyment, and not much inward dealing. No doubt that was good; to enjoy the Lord is never a bad thing, and I am thankful that those years established a solid foundation in my Christan life.

But the Lord wants to move on in all of us. The Lord wants to spread from our spirit to our soul. Since moving to a new environment, the Lord has placed me in situations contrary to my upbringing and contrary to my value system. But I've begun to learn that the Lord is sovereign. I'm exposed to see that we can love so many other things over the Lord. We can love our reputation before the saints or our ideas about what it means to be a good Christian more than the Lord.

The Lord has dealt with each of those things inside of me, and ironically, I've become more human in the process.

Maybe it's not so ironic. God wants to make us God-men. Men. Ultimately, we're still human by nature, but we have God in us. That's what makes the difference. Whether we have the person of the Lord in whatever we do. And a God-man is one who is so human, yet knows how to contact and depend on the Lord in every situation.

I'm beginning to think that God has now become my personal God. He is no longer just the God of my parents, the God that happened to be thrown into my upbringing, the God of some sort of religious duty. He is my God. He's become so personal and unique to me.

I'm eating the hidden manna.
I'm getting God into me.
Cause when God gets into me, I get into God.